The Paschal greeting has been used by various Christian groups for centuries on Easter morning. Rather than saying "hello," one greets another believer with "Christ is Risen!" The response is "He is Risen Indeed!"
For my brothers and sisters celebrating throughout the world:
ICELANDIC: Kristur er upprisinn! Hann er sannarlega upprisinn!
FRENCH: Christ est ressuscité! Il est vraiment ressuscité!
SPANISH: ¡Cristo ha resucitado! ¡En verdad ha resucitado!
OLD IRISH: Asréracht Críst! Asréracht Hé-som co dearb!
IRISH: Tá Críost éirithe! Go deimhin, tá sé éirithe!
MANX: Taw Creest Ereen! Taw Shay Ereen Guhdyne!
SCOTTISH: Tha Crìosd air èiridh! Gu dearbh, tha e air èiridh!
BRETON: Dassoret eo Krist! E wirionez dassoret eo!
CORNISH: Thew Creest dassorez! En weer thewa dassorez!
WELSH: Atgyfododd Crist! Yn wir atgyfododd!
HAWAIIAN: Ua ala aʻe nei ʻo Kristo! Ua ala ʻiʻo nō ʻo Ia!
I've been thinking about today - in the liturgical world, it's called "Holy Saturday." Simply put, it is the day wedged between "Good Friday" and "Resurrection Day" (or Easter.) Many Catholic churches go quiet on this day. Following the mass on Maundy Thursday, the chancel is totally bare with the administration of the sacraments being very limited.
The American Episcopal church and other Anglican churches often have a solemn reading of the Liturgy of the Word.
Other churches hold simple gatherings as a close to Holy Week.
Many evangelical churches do nothing official. Some, due to expanded crowds and in attempts to reach more in the community will add additional Easter services on Saturday evening.
I'm not saying any of these things are necessarily bad. In fact, what churches do with this day is really not the point of this posting.
As I sit here this morning, reading my Bible, drinking my coffee and thinking about the day, a question crosses my mind, "What was it like to wake up in in a world without Jesus?" That is what the group of disciples and followers of Christ were experiencing in Jerusalem almost two-thousand years ago.
Hindsight is 20/20 and we know that as we celebrate Easter tomorrow, Jesus was rising again. For the disciples in Jerusalem, the resurrection was less that 24 hours away and would become the greatest celebration in Christendom for centuries to come.
But, for them. . .it's still Saturday.
While we know what was to come, the disciples who huddled together in hiding do not. Oh, they were told by Jesus that he would rise again, but it wasn't until after the fact those parables and direct statements were fully understood.
So, on this day, almost two-thousand years ago a group of frightened followers of Christ, men and women who had walked away from their jobs, families, religious legalism, and comfort zones gathered in a quiet room, feeling hopeless.
Jesus was dead. He was crucified yesterday. They saw (well, those who didn't run away) his body, beaten, bruised and bloody, hanging from the Roman cross over a garbage dump in an area known as "the Skull." Some were there when his lifeless body was removed and placed in the borrowed tomb of a wealthy disciple from Arimathea.
The previous three years of their lives were running through their minds like a movie on rewind. Some were wondering if they could get their previous jobs back. Would they be able to go back home?
Good Friday may have been the darkest day in the history of the world, but I wonder what the disciples gathered together on Saturday would say? I'm just speculating, but I would say that some, if not all may affirm that after the crucifixion was almost unbearable - perhaps even worse?
They woke up (in their understanding) in a world without Jesus.
I'll be speaking on this subject tomorrow morning. I fear that by choice, too many people are living their lives today like it's the Saturday before Easter.
Just remember, we have an advantage over those disciples in hiding. We have turned the page and we see what the next day holds.
From the lowest of lows to the highest of highs in less that 24 hours. The next day is the day where it all becomes clear. Death was defeated. Jesus lives.
It's Good Friday. The darkest day in history is called "good." It is the day that Jesus Christ - the Son of God - God the Son - second person of the Trinity, died a horrible, gruesome death apparently at the hands of legalistic religious leaders and an occupying government.
However, if you know the story, you understand that this was the plan from the very beginning. Jesus came and lived a life of purpose - all to bring glory to the Father. He died as payment for the sins of the world. This act, just like His words, was inspired and fully true. This was no accident. This was no afterthought. This was all part of the plan.
It often seems that God really loves paradoxes. You know - to be rich, you must be poor, to have you must give away, to be mature, you must be like a little child, a "Good Friday" is in celebration of a horrendous event, and to live. . .you must die.
Christ died to bring glory to the Father and to pay for the sins of us all. Because He died (and rose again in defeat of death) you and I can live.
Today, milliions of people know it's Good Friday, but fewer understand the meaning or the significance of it. May we, as Christ-followers, never forget the sacrifice given for us and may we live intentionally and strategically today and every day so that many more may come to have life through the One who is the Way, Truth and the Life.
Everyone's talking about it. Facebook and Twitter are being inundated with status updates relating to it. The pink and red equal sign is showing up everywhere. Late night talk show hosts are using the story as fodder for their monologues. I cannot open a newsfeed, news app, turn on the news or listen on the radio without hearing debates about it.
Adults and teenagers are marching and defending this "right." Students have shifted from spending their spring break on the beach to joining others in Washington DC for this "momentous occasion." Some from our own schools are in DC for this today.
In fact, if you speak against the topic of the week, you are immediately demonized and labeled a bigot or hater.
Gay marriage is the topic of the week . . . and regardless what the Supreme Court says, it will remain the topic for years to come. The gay marriage debate has been destined to happen in this country for decades.
It is an orchestrated battle, and not one developed by a group of
LGBT lawyers and advocates. This is a spiritual battle and it's become
apparent that we (the church) may not know how to fight it. We have fought a spiritual battle with physical means. . .and we're losing.
battle for gay rights and gay marriage has been strategically wrapped in
terms such as "love," "equality," "rights," etc. This strategy is so
well thought out that anyone opposed to the lifestyle is then labeled as close-minded and a bigot since they're against love, equality, rights, etc.
To acknowledge the reality that homosexuality, for example, is a sin puts Christ-followers on the defensive. Most Christ-followers do not play defense very well.
However, it's not really about gay marriage. In fact, it's not really about rights or the Constitution.
Pastor Dean Inserra of City Church, Tallahassee recently blogged about the real issue. I echo what he is saying here:
Throughout Scripture God gives us visible portraits of invisible
realities. When a father runs to and throws his arms around his
rebellious son, we see the visible portrait of the invisible reality of
the love that our heavenly father has for his children. When one
forgives another their debt, it is a visible portrait of the invisible
reality of how Christ has paid our debt through his death, that we could
never repay ourselves.
The greatest example of this that we see in Scripture is the visible
portrait of marriage, a covenant between a husband and a wife. This
points us to the invisible reality of the relationship between Christ
and the Church.
God’s commands always relate to his purposes.
“For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. This mystery is profound, but I am talking about Christ and the church.
To sum up, each one of you is to love his wife as himself, and the wife
is to respect her husband.” (Ephesians 5:31-33 HCSB)
When God created Adam and Eve, male and female, husband and wife, the
gospel was not just on His mind, it was fully in play. Gender, and
marriage are about the gospel. This is why we must be courageous in
talking about divorce, adultery, and any sex outside of marriage.
Anything that is not God’s design of a husband and a wife, in a
life-long, monogamous relationship, is a gospel issue. The sexual union
between a husband and a wife points us to the ultimate union between
Christ and the Church. I officiate a lot of weddings, and I always make
it very clear to the bride and groom that their specific gender roles
and responsibilities are not cultural, they are designed by God, to
point us to the gospel. (Read the full posting here.)
The issue is the gospel.
It seems that many churches and believers are silent on the issue of homosexuality and gay marriage in particular. Those that do speak out often do so in anger and frustration and perpetuate an image that does more to harm the cause of Christ than push it forward.
I have read numerous articles and books as well as listened to many pastors and leaders speak on the defense of traditional marriage. I believe in the fidelity of the marriage relationship as defined in Scripture being between one man (born a man) and one woman (born a woman) for life. I believe that a cultural redefinition of marriage (which, by the way, has already happened in our culture, regardless what SCOTUS determines) is dangerous and a significant mistake. To use a simpler term, it is a sin. It's just that I believe to build the debate on the defense of
traditional marriage is like having cancer and taking an aspirin to
defeat it. There's a bigger issue at hand.
God is God and could have used any institution or portrait He desired
to point us to the invisible reality of His plan for redemption. In His
sovereign and creative power, He intentionally chose the relationship
between a man and a woman, as husband and wife. God did not point to a
brother and sister, mother and child, best friends, or boss and
employee. He gave us marriage, male and female He created them. If we
cave in on this, we cave in on the entire message of God’s redemption.
This is not about America, or family values. The homosexual conversation
is one about the gospel. Thankfully, this gospel is available to all of
us, and the marriage institution is the model God has given us to
understand it. We will be more compassionate when the gospel is our
motivation, not political advancement or winning a debate.
When we discuss marriage, let’s discuss Christ. That was the whole point from the beginning. (Dean Inserra)
I remember hearing Andy Stanley speak about decision making in his church. He used the terms "good idea" and "God idea."
"Good ideas" are those things that come up in a church, or any organization for that matter, that are just that - good. They offer a service or provide for a need. They are good and they not only help others, but allow those doing the work or service feel good about themselves. They feel accomplished.
There is nothing wrong with a good idea.
Then, there are "God ideas." These are good as well. Well. . .because God is good. Yet, there's something deeper about a God idea. There's a story behind the story. There's a purpose beneath the visible. God ideas are often impossible. They appear challenging. This is because they are. Sometimes God ideas do not make a lot of sense at first. In many cases, there will be difficulty in articulating the "why" and the "what" of the God idea clearly at first.
Over time, however, it becomes clear.
I struggle differentiating between good ideas and God ideas at times.
Our church has a hard time with this as well. This is evidenced by projects that come up by small groups, ministries and even individuals within the church.
Sometimes our calendar gets so full of good ideas that there is no time left for the God ideas.
The result is a church that is busy, but not really about the Lord's business.
Maybe this is the meaning behind the phrase, "Good is the enemy of best."
It's a constant challenge. Every church faces this. Every believer faces this. We live in a culture that celebrates full calendars and busy-ness. I think we often live life like it's a sprint when we should be running as if it's a marathon.
Now, here's the challenge - being able to discern between time-stealing good ideas and Kingdom expanding God ideas.
As we focus on what it means to be Kingdom expanders, we will hear the voice of God more clearly. The hard question will be asked more frequently - "Does this expand the Kingdom of God?"
What will happen when the church embraces this and answers the question honestly? What happens when God's people say "no" to good ideas to focus on the God ideas?
Individuals and small groups live more intentionally
The church will not have to promote and plead that people "be missional"
The church celebrates where the individuals and small groups are living missionally
God stories increase and are shared more regularly
Living as a missionary of God to the culture will become the norm
Selflessness becomes common among God's people
Lost people are strategically sought
Evangelistic opportunities are not missed
Baptism celebrations increase
Disciples are made
God's Kingdom is increased
This is what I believe happens. In fact, it's been happening for centuries. It just doesn't happen on a foundation of "good ideas." No one is good enough to manufacture Kingdom growth. Only God does that.
May we discover where God is working and join him there. (Thanks, Henry Blackaby)
When my friend Jeff Christopherson from Toronto was here back in February, he shared with our network of pastors at the Jacksonville Baptist Association. As he talked about the concept of being Kingdom Expanders for God, he shared briefly about Jesus' triumphal entry into Jerusalem.
The mental picture he painted resonated with me and, yes, as God continued to affirm this, became the premise for yesterday's (Palm Sunday's) message. Here's the transcript from a portion of yesterday's message. To hear the entire sermon, click the audio link above.
The entrance into the city of
Jerusalem was not orchestrated so that Christians could reenact it in their
passion plays and musicals for years to come. The entrance was intentional.
It was a fulfillment of
It affirmed Christ’s
Messiah-ship. He was the king, entering the city of God, for the sake of God.
The palm branches weren’t
random. They were symbols of victory. The crowd did exactly what they were
supposed to do. They were waving the branches. They were shouting “Hosanna!”
(Hebrew for “please save” or “save now” that became a shout of praise.)
He rode a donkey – a symbol of
humility and servitude.
The King who came to serve.
Imitate Christ – serve, love,
live with no distractions, focused for the glory of the God.
It’s pretty simple really, but
then that’s why we have problems.
Somewhere over the years, and
it’s happened time and time again, believers have missed this. The church has
Remember, it’s about purpose,
but also position.
Let me ask you – “What was the
purpose of the donkey?”
The donkey had one simple
purpose, to carry Jesus into the city. He was bringing the Savior to the
Imagine the donkey walking down that narrow Jerusalem city. He looks up and sees the crowds gathering.
Perhaps he was a little scared at first, then noticing the people were singing
and shouting, he begins to feel really good about himself. They were saying “Hosanna!” It was incredible. They were waving
palm branches to him. Some may have even lain the branches down for him to walk
Think of this scene – the city
was coming out for the glory of this donkey.
Is that right?
Of course not. They were not
celebrating the donkey. The world was not stopping to worship the donkey. The
donkey was not the point at all.
He may have thought he was, but
he was not. If he did think so, it was because he forgot who was on his back.
The donkey was just the mode of
transporting the Savior to the people, for the purpose He had ordained before
The donkey was not the point.
Sometimes as believers and the
church, we think we’re the point, but we forget our role.
We are here not for ourselves, but to connect others to Christ. The church is
the transport of Christ, the King, to the people.
In other words, the church is like the donkey. We're here to bring the King to the people.
May we remember our purpose. May we remember our position.
You know, hindsight is 20-20. It always has been. It's when you are able to look back and see things so much more clearly, you wonder why you couldn't then.
Satan is a master of distraction. He hates God. He hates the church. He hates Christ-followers. Therefore, anything and everything he can do to keep God's people from pushing forward the Kingdom of God has been and will be his strategy.
A few weeks ago I introduced a new logo for our church. Now, I'm sure churches didn't have logos in the New Testament times, but today, especially in America, it seems to be popular. Logos identify brands and when it comes to churches, they signify much. The cross is emblematic of the sacrifice Christ gave to allow us to know Him. Other things like the Christian fish or multiple crosses, crowns of thorns and the like are all emblems that identify faith factors.
Sometimes a logo will incorporate things specific to a community or area (i.e. rolling hills, water, palm trees, etc.)
Our logo was in need for an upgrade. The old logo was something I designed about 15 years ago and over the years touched up, morphed and modernized as needed.
The new logo would incorporate color and rectangles with a cross evident in the negative space. It's emblematic of the four classes we offer annually as well as the four personal connections we encourage members to engage. It also shows the seeming randomness of life and how the cross at the center puts everything in order.
However. . . and here's where the issue was, I changed the wording on the logo (please note that I did NOT change the name of the church) to say "First Orange Park: A Southern Baptist Church" rather than "First Baptist Church of Orange Park."
While many applauded the new look, it did not set well with everyone. The intent was not to create frustration, but to create clarity. In retrospect, I did not lead into this well. Yep, I messed up. The result was a huge distraction to the mission and the potential of derailing what God is doing here.
The issue at hand was that as an autonomous church body, we did not discuss (or vote) on the change of the wording. That is an issue for many. The other issue was that we seemingly removed "Baptist" from the name. We really didn't. Though I tried to explain that by putting "A Southern Baptist Church" on the logo we better identified ourselves as conservative, Bible believing Baptists that adhere to our confessional statement, The Baptist Faith & Message, it was not being heard as a valid response.
Nevertheless, the damage had been done.
So, I've adjusted the wording. The cross and rectangles logo - well, that's very strategic and will remain. It will be defined throughout the year. Some things have already been printed with the older logo, but rather than throw all the business cards and offering envelopes out, we'll run through them and put the "new" new logo on any upcoming orders.
Don't get me wrong. There really isn't an uprising in the church. People are still attending and serving. Attendance at 9:15 is growing quickly. Numerous folks are surrendering their lives to full time service and we're baptizing.
There have been some who have shown frustration, not many, but some. Yet, it's just enough to give the Enemy a foothold.
Here's the bottom line. There's too much at stake for the Kingdom of God to allow disunity and dissension over something like this to grow.
So, to my church, I repent. I repent for not being clear and for not protecting you from the Enemy's lies and attacks. His strategy is predictable. I should have seen this coming.
I'm excited as we move forward with intentionality and a strategic purpose to push back the darkness and grow the Kingdom of God.
Remember, at First Baptist Church. . .the Kingdom of God is first.
I have noticed a trend in recent years with this generation of BFFs and "friends." The concept of friendship has morphed. Perhaps this is due to the growth of social media and the dumbing down of the term "friend."
The reality is that "friend" has become a verb, and a weak one at that. People are "friended" on Facebook. No longer is there a deep relationship of love and concern attributed to the term. The Bible states that Abraham was considered to be a "friend of God" (James 2:23). Not too long ago, the reading of this passage evoked feelings of kinship and closeness that since have become little more than an affirmation of acknowledgement.
Unfortunately, many now "friend" God like they do others on Facebook. There's no relationship, just a click of a button.
It is most evident among adolescents. As a child moves through puberty and matures physically, emotinoally, spiritually and mentally, the desire for deep seated friendships arise. This is due to relational maturation.
Psychologist Erik Erickson postulated that human beings have eight stages of life development. His stage for adolescense is based on the ages 12-18. During this stage, a teenager's primary goal is to learn who they are an dwhat they want to be as a person and in a profession. They also seek to understand how to be themselves and how to share themselves with others. This is a crucial time of development and transition into adulthood.
Christ following parents struggle with this as their children move through this stage. It is a fearful and wonderful time, and often leads to increased prayer time for moms and dads.
Friends come and go and during the times of discovery and transition, they have intense influence. Life-long friendships can be developed during this time, but more often than not, these friendships wane over time. That's what leads to people going to their high school reunions and needing to wear nametags.
I recently reduced the number of my "friends" on Facebook. I went from over 2,200 to just over 40. This was intentional, and time consuming since there is no way to "unfriend" (interesting that "unfriend" is a word now. It wasn't just a few years ago) en masse.
Michael Hyatt, author and former Chairman and CEO of Thomas Nelson Publishers, blogs about his unfriending of many on his personal Facebook page here. He references the dumbing down of the term friend via Facebook and what became his defining factors of who would remain a Facebook friend here:
Friends: These are the people I know in real life. They are people I have met face-to-face, enjoy being around, and interact with in real life. (These three elements are key.) Frankly, a few of these relatinoships started off online through Twitter. Over time, they grew and developed. Regardless, I have a few deep and significant friendships. But if I am honest, I don't have many. I only have so much time available.
It's an interesting, intentional move with social media.
When it comes to the younger generation (older children to young adults) the concept of friendship is muddy. People still need friends, but you will see many who Tweet and post pictures of their "best friends" and these "best" change daily, if not hourly.
I asked one student how it was possible to have numerous best friends. The student looked perplexed and stared at me as if I had three heads. Was this such a hard question? How can there be numerous "best friends?"
Just the name "best" means unique and singular. Therefore, in my apparently old fashioned mind, it appears to be impossible to have more than one "best friend." What if these numerous "best friends" gathered together. Would a fight erupt? Would they battle to determine who was the "bestest" friend?
Maybe I am old fashioned. It just appears to me that words matter.
Even Jesus modeled the concept of intimacy and closeness with his followers. He had thousands of followers, dozens of disciples, twelve apostles and three very close friends within the group. Then, there's John who is self-described as the "disciple whom Jesus loved" intimating at a very close friendship.
Nevertheless, in a generation that so needs friends, the ever-changing Wikipedia definition of what a friend is seems to be prevailing.
Christ-followers would be wise to remember what the Word of God has to say about close friendships. This verse is often used to describe the marriage relationship, but it's broader than that. It speaks to those relationships with other human beings. It refers to the "best friends" that are sought and at times found.
"Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" 2 Corinthians 6:14 (ESV)
Facebook has grown immensely over the years. While some are prophesying of the social media giant's inevitable downfall (i.e. Friendster, MySpace, etc.) the fact remains that Facebook is still a big player in the social media world.
The fact is that many of the original target users have now forsaken the site for other entities such as Pinterest, Instagram and Twitter. However, many still check Facebook daily.
That being said, I have noticed recently some things posted on Timelines and friend's pages that just don't sound right. Knowing the "posters" as I do, I believe the comments to be tongue in cheek and attempts at humor. Nevertheless, they never quite sound that way.
Because the nuances of sarcasm and humor are not necessarily translatable in typed text (even with cute "smiley faces" and "thumbs up" icons added.)
Since often "inside jokes" are shared on Facebook that the commenter and the page owner understand and no one else, misinformation and misunderstanding are the natural result.
That being the case, I am going to use my personal Facebook page less and less and rely on a "Public Figure" page for linking my blog postings, updates and announcements. Truth be told, I'm not very fond of this option, but I am at a perplexing crossroad here. As the pastor of First Baptist Orange Park, I must do all I can to protect the integrity of the church and the mission of Kingdom growth. I don't like the "public figure" title because it seems to make more of me than I am. I wish there was another title. At least you don't become my "fan" when "liking" the page. That's even worse.
Since no one can be online all the time (though some of you make me believe you are) the potential of hurtful or at a minimum, misunderstood comments and postings on a personal page ending up on someone's News Feed is there.
I like figuring things out. I
don’t like being in the dark. I don’t like not knowing. This makes it hard for
folks to enjoy watching a movie with me, I have discovered. My wife and I went
to a movie on a date night a couple of weeks ago. It was a romantic thriller.
Not bad. However, about 45 minutes into the film I figured out something about
one of the characters that immediately made things more clear for me. However,
the thing I figured out was apparently supposed to be the surprise ending of
the film. I leaned over to my wife, poked her in the arm and told her what I
figured out about the character. Well, she didn’t like the fact I told her
that, but to me – that’s the point of a movie – figure it out early. It’s like
a game, right?
Nevertheless, I still
like to be in the know. I like to understand, to know why things are the way
they are. What’s really going on? That’s how Paul begins this chapter (1 Corinthians 10) – “I want
you to know” or in some translations “I do not want you to be ignorant” or
“unaware.” This is evidence that in this world, there is a cloud of confusion
that covers humanity. In other words, the reality is that the entire world
lives ignorant to much of what Paul is saying here. Even many believers and
those in the church remain ignorant to these truths.
With the specific sins designated in chapter 10 of 1 Corinthians, there is revealed a root sin from which all the others ae birthed. It is the sin of idolatry.
In Martin Luther’s study of the
Ten Commandments he noted that the first two deal with idolatry while the other
eight deal with stealing, murder, lying, sexual sin and the like. He surmised
that if you never broke the first two commandments, you would never break the
Your sin of choice – whether
violence, drugs, porn, adultery, gluttony, whatever is rooted in the sin of
idolatry. It’s that simple. Those other sins are just the low hanging fruit off
the tree of idolatry.
Pay attention to this thing
So Paul says “I don’t want you
to be ignorant. You need to know this.”
Therefore, my beloved, flee from idolatry. (1 Corinthians 10:14 ESV)
That’s why John Calvin said “Man's nature, so to
speak, is a perpetual factory of idols.”
Everyone worships. It’s just that everyone doesn’t
worship God. In fact, many times people who sing what we designate as worship
songs do not even worship God. How can that be? Because we can say one thing
and be devoted to another.
We serve a jealous God. The only one deserving of our
love and worship and yet we make him compete.
Some people live like they’re on "The Bachelor" and
they’re dating God and everything else at the same time. Then, they postulate
at the end of it all, when it really matters, they’ll give their rose to God
and be welcomed into heaven.
God is a jealous God and life is more real than a
weak reality show.
Worship comes, the English word, out of a Latin derivative
which means, literally, to ascribe worth to. So whoever or whatever you hold at
highest regard, highest esteem, highest honor. Whatever is most important to
you. Whoever is most important to you, you give your time, your energy, your
money, your love, your devotion, your hopes, your dreams, your fears to that person
or thing. That is your functional God.
“I love God and”. . . is idolatry.
“I’ll serve you God, but I have to” . . . is
To what are you devoted?
When I went to China a few years
ago, I traveled to a Buddhist temple in the city of Xian. It is a tourist area
and since I was officially on a tour, we had to stop. It was beautiful, yet
troubling. At this temple were dozens of Buddhist monks bowing and praying to a
statue of the Buddha. While there may be arguments that say “They’re not
worshipping the statue” the reality is they are bowing and praying before a
It’s amazing how much
easier it is to see idolatry in others than in ourselves
Idolatry is slavery to that which we love.
What is your idol?
What fills your mind most often? Your family? Your spouse? Your
children? Your job? Your stuff? Your money? Your church? Your power?
Your cars? Your home? Your school?
What motivates you?
What is most important?
What do you long for?
Where do you run for comfort?
What frustrates you?
What angers you?
What concerns you?
What upsets you?
What do you talk about all the time?
When something takes that much energy, time or effort on your part, it may be indicative of your functional idol.